ever have that nagging feeling that you've just forgotten something but for the life of you can not think of what it is? i've that feeling sometimes. like when i'm halfway to the school and forgot to check if all necessary school things are packed into the backpacks---like snow pants. (no big, we're only a 7 min. walk from the school.) or like when i'm flying down the highway on my way to an appointment that we'll be on time for but realize i need my wallet which contains my identification and more importantly money that i'll need for shopping but or darn, i forgot the lists and shoot, i forgot to bring out that neat little note pad that would fit so nicely in the front cubby of the van cuz i could just scribble out another grocery list and drive and where is that clear lip gloss i paid a chunk of change for that i love anyway, it was in my pocket yesterday, i think.
sometimes i forget stuff.
peoples names, directions on how to get out to the egg ladies farm, stuff the kids need for school, something or other Michael may have needed or wanted me to do for him. often i forget friends birth or anniversary dates, where i put my keys and sometimes i even forget the kettle or soup pot boiling on the stove while i'm distracted by something else. just this evening while gearing up for a sit to blog, i thot it would be so nice to sip some freshly brewed tea. i don't know just how long the kettle boiled (i'd forgotten to put down the little whistley flappy thing over the spout after i'd turned the element on) and forgot all together about my sweet evening night cap while it did something i can't recall just now. i'm just glad i can still hear water boiling. and i'm glad the kettle was full enough to not boil dry. can't imagine what i'll be like at 80!
not that i think i've Alzheimer's, but there are days when i really do need to be more focused and there are more focused days than not, but it is truly one of life's annoyances to forget something so vital as wipes on a Sunday morning "poop fest" in the church bathroom after your 2 year old annoyances she had an accident, even though you packed the diaper bag the night before and laid out the entire family's clothes and thought to sprout some grains for a filling breakfast but you know you should have filled the little wipes container like you'd intended to finish doing before you were called away to yet another need in the house because now it is sitting empty on the top of the girls drawer at home when you
really need it hear and now. whew. (this has never actually happened to me, as far as i can remember, but a desperate church going friend did borrow my wipes one time in the middle of service...)
perhaps there's just too much for me to remember having to remember for 4 people other than myself. perhaps my little brain can not retain all that it needs to while by little body tries to keep up with the everyday demands of home and family. perhaps i just need a note pad and pen duct taped to my fore are so i can write everything down. perhaps i just need more sleep. that being said, good night.